My parents showed my brother and I we needed the "hard work ethic" to have the money for the things we wanted. One of my parents was very materialistic. In order to satisfy that thirst for material goods, the only way was to work more, longer, and harder. There were times throughout our childhood that both my parents worked two jobs. I also must say our education was important and a high priority for them.

Without going through all the details of each experience, suffice it to say that I accepted most of the experiences of my first 30 years as fact and truth, though I didn't know it at the time. Because of those facts and truths, this is how I functioned and lived for 40+ years. As a result, I wound up with an inflated ego, sought instant gratification, and had low self esteem.

Do you know what those three characteristics added up to? FEAR! But I didn't know it at the time.

With an inflated ego and an instant gratification mindset, I was able to produce or bring things into my life that I wanted or needed (I thought) to get me through another day, another week, another month, or if I was really good, another year. What this gave me was a false sense of confidence - I was always looking over my shoulder to see what was coming up next. There were times I had it all, and yet the struggle would creep back in. That was because the foundation everything was built on was not strong, but soft from an inflated ego and instant gratification. Add to that the low self esteem I had learned and accepted from others which kept replaying internally and externally, and you can see how my life wasn't always the way I wanted it to be.

"So", I thought "this is how life is supposed to be". Some of us were here to struggle, and others were lucky and had all the breaks. I was kind of in a weird place. I struggled, yet still had some lucky breaks. It was like someone was still watching over me regardless of what I did.

In the mid nineties I became a certified Massage Technician, which began to take the focus away from myself. I focused on others and their well-being. I eventually became an Emergency Medical Technician where I was seeing the pain and hurt others endured. That taught me to be grateful for what I have. At the turn of the century, I learned how to meditate and though I had found a greater degree of inner peace with meditation, I only did it sporadically. You see I was still functioning with a somewhat inflated ego, instant gratification, and low self esteem - just what seemed normal to me all those years.

My Turning Point

I knew I needed to heal physically, and, as a result of increasing my daily meditations, I came to a realization that I also needed to heal mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

As I started to work on my whole being, a whole new world began to open up for me, at all levels and in all areas of my life. Over the next few years I searched for answers and the truth of others. I read as many books as I could, had great mentors, went to seminars, and did everything I could to keep me moving forward in my life.

During this process I began to attract and create the better things in life for myself. But it was hit or miss at best, sometimes two steps forward and one step back, or one step forward and two steps back. Though I was grateful for what I was accomplishing, I just knew it had to be easier.

I was practicing almost everything I had learned, thinking that perhaps I just needed to perfect the technique(s) to create and attract what I wanted in life. Yet something always felt like it was missing, as if there was one more piece to the puzzle. One day after I came home from work, I continued reading Joe Vitale's book, The Attractor Factor. About twenty minutes into the reading, I started to feel tired and decided to take a little power nap, so I placed the book on my chest. Ten to fifteen minutes into the nap, my body began to shake uncontrollably - almost like a seizure. I was still asleep, yet I was fully aware of what was going on. I forced my eyes to open and saw the lower part of my body shaking as if it were in a high vibration. This went on for about ten more seconds, and then stopped. Though I was not scared, I was concerned about what this episode meant. With no clear answer from those I asked, I just moved on and forgot about it.

Several weeks later, I began to notice the crystal clarity of things that came to me, and of my understanding of those things. It was the inner knowing; the Truth, of what and how Life is supposed to be like.

Over and over everything was being played out for me, and everything was starting to make sense. It was like everything I had learned through the years was now simultaneously waking up my inner Wisdom. I started to create and attract situations into my Life more often and frequently.

In a flash that I didn't see coming, all the clarity that seemed infinite came rushing at me. That same clarity is what produced the steps called The Titus Concept that are in my book. You know what they are all about? Here it is: